Yesterday was the 5th anniversary of the loss of our father. The heart never stops hurting. Learning to be blessed by the memories of those no longer with us is easier said then done.
And yet, we are OK. Life continues with or without loss and we have an obligation to those that remain to live in the present; to learn and be blessed by the past but to focus on the here and the now.
We have also figured out that we have a choice. That choice, which only we can make, is to spend the rest of our lives trying to protect our hearts from further loss or to grieve and through that eventually attain further joy in life. And so we choose joy. Joy in surroundings, joy in family, joy. As I looked through pictures to put in the post I realized that joy also chose us.
Out here, joy in surroundings is over abundant. Rabbits run rampant, butterflies waft, birds call, goats, horses and cows make themselves heard.
Our goals of growing our own food are materializing and the gardening opportunities in the desert never cease to amaze us.
We look forward to beehives, grass fed beef and lamb, orchards and bigger gardens. Our children are educated not just by traditional learning but by nature and by learning to live.
Through all of this we find joy.
So yes, there is no good time to say goodbye...my heart hurts each time I try. Instead loved one, go blessed by Him. May He be with you till we meet again.
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“It’s not enough to wish, dream, hope. Even children know this. We must set sail into the sea of uncertainty. We must meet fear face-to-face. We must take our dreams as maps for a greater journey. Dreams, to come true, need a good story. So go live one.”
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